(My story, originally posted on Pffanon.wikia.com. It will be updated so if you leave a comment I will message you when I update!)
Dear diary, Stacy here. You know how when you really like a guy and if you like him long enough, everything just seems to fall into place? Well, I am not sure how true that is. See, I have always liked Coltrane but I know Coltrane has liked Lacy for the longest time. It' s really obvious as well. But about a week ago at school...
"Hey Stacy!" Candace yelled to me in the hallway.
"Stacy, did you hear?"
"Lacy got a boyfriend," Candace told me.
"Oh" I said.
I was always a little jealous of her for Coltrane liking her. I mean what is it in her that he sees? Why am I not good enough? Those were the questions that always ran through my mind whenever I saw him staring at her, ditching me to go sit with her at lunch, or worse, asking her to sit with us
. See, Lacey and I used to be okay friends but she always thought she was too good to be seen with me, though I went to her birthday party and, as usual with her, she ditched me to hang out with someone better. Me and Coltrane are pretty good friends.
I know almost everything about him, though we talk a lot he never asks me about myself, I am not sure if he even knows my favorite color. Not that knowing my favorite color is a big deal. It's a simple thing to know. We have been friends for about a year and a half. When we first met we really hit it off. I figured he would have asked me out in no time. Candace thought so too.
."Who's going out with her?" I asked.
"I don't know some goth guy."
"Well good for her I guess," I said as I walked to class.
I was not sure why she told me that but I found out soon enough. During second hour Coltrane said he wanted to talk to me after lunch. So I waited until then.
"Umm Stacy," Coltrane said
"Can I talk to you in the hallway?"
"Sure," I said as I walked with him.
But while we were walking he randomly asked"Will you be my girlfriend?".
I really was not expecting it. I was thrown way off guard and he wanted an answer right then and there.
"Maybe," was all I could say.
I then walked away. I saw Candace right away when I walked back in the lunchroom.
"Sooo? Did you say yes?" she asked.
"Wait, how did you know?"
"Stace I'm your best friend. I know these things. So?"
"I said maybe."
"Whaa.. Why?" she asked.
"Because. I just was thrown off guard! Okay?"
"Alright" was all she could say before the bell rang.
I figured Coltrane had just taken that as a no. But the next day he asked me if I had made up my mind yet.
I told him "I just don't think we.. know each other enough yet. I hope you understand."
"Oh.. Well what is it you want to know about me?" he asked.
That was not entirely what I had meant but I went along with it.
Asking him stupid questions like "What's your favorite color?" and "Do you have any pets?".
He never asked me a thing about myself.
"Well, not to sound pushy but do you know enough about me now?" he asked.
He did a really bad job of not trying to sound pushy.
"I.. I just think I am not ready to have a boyfriend now," I told him as an excuse.
There was an awkward silence then I said "But, I will think about it! I just need to clear my head... I'll let you know Monday." I told him.
"*snap* Okay!" He said as he walked away to his last class of the week. As I walked to my class Candace came up to me and started freaking out.
"Stacy! Its just two weeks until Summer vacation !What am I going to do? I have to come up with a battle plan. There shenanigans have won on for too long!"
"Let me guess, Phineas and Ferb?"
"Yes! I just know that they are going to build bigger and more annoying things than last year!"
"Well I am sure you will get them this year. Hey Candace?"
"Um, if there was this boy you kinda liked and he-"I started to say.
"Oh that reminds me! I need to call Jeremy. He is going to pick me up for our date later. He is so nice just the other day he-"
Then the teacher came in. I never got to tell Candace. I don't think she really cared. But that's Candace for ya. She really does mean well. Even if she comes off an conceited she means well. When class was over I took the bus home. Candace called me the next day.
"So Stacy, whats up? You seemed a little bummed out."
I told her about how Coltrane asked me out and how I knew he still liked Lacy.
"You like him right?" she asked.
"And he wouldn't ask you out if he didn't like you!"
"Well that's true. I suppose your right! I will tell him Monday that I will be his girlfriend!" I said.
"Good. Now what am I going to do about Phineas and Ferb? I just know there up to something!"
"What are they doing now?" "Umm I don't know. I will call you back Stacy!" she said as she hung up.
I decided to go to the mall. I was trying to make myself happy. I mean I was going to be his girlfriend! He would like me more than all the other girls. Still, for some reason I was not happy. Even the new line of shoes or the clothes that went on sale didn't cheer me up
I noticed that a new comic book store had opened up. I went inside. Ok, I admit it, I have always liked comic books, even some manga, but I have never told anyone.
People see me as.. well not a nerd. And they wouldn't understand. I tried to talk to Jenny about it once but she just looked at me funny. She didn't get it. And she is the type of person that trys to understand people.
No one gets it. How a girl like me could be into such a thing? Ah well.
I went in and looked around.
"Wow this place is so cool!" I said as I looked around. I grabbed for the newest edition of Firewood, my favorite comic, but I did not notice the boy next to me was also reaching for the same book
"Oh I'm sorry!" I said
"No it was my fault! Here" He said as he handed the book to me
."Thanks. I'm Stacy".
"I'm Albert" he said as he shook my hand. His face was a little red. I could tell. I was hoping he was not sick.
So do you shop here a lot?" He asked me
Not really, to be honest I did not even know this place was a comic shop or I would shop here more".
"I am here every Saturday" he said proudly.
"Well that sounds fun." I said.
There was a bit of an awkward science so I said " Sorry again for bumping in to you, I guess I will go check out. See you around?"
So I checked out and left with my new comic book and when I left he held the door opened for me!
I thought that was sweet and thanked him. I felt like a dweeb carrying around the book so I put into my purse. I still could not shake the feeling that I was making the wrong choice about Coltrane.
"Maybe.. Maybe I am just hungry. Yeah that's it! If I eat something I will feel better" I thought to myself as I walked to the food court.
I stood on the bridge over the food court looking down at the people below. I love the smell of the mall. I always have. It's the only thing that changes is for the good. New shoes, new clothes, even new comic books. The smell, the feel, just the happiness of it all. It is always there for me when friends are not. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes and for a split second all was well.'But that changed instantly...
As I opened my eyes and took one last look around before I went to go eat, something caught my eye.
"That brown hair.. Those clothes... It
It cant be!" I thought as I took a closer look.
It was. There I saw
Coltrane and Lacey kissing! I almost fell down I was so overwhelmed with it all.
We were going to be together! I did not know what to do.
I went to the nearest bathroom as I started crying. I was there for a good 10 minutes until I could make myself leave. As I left to go home I saw them again. They were still going at it! Dang, how long can two people kiss, I mean really!
I tried to hold back more tears unsuccessfully as I started walking home.
"Darn.. Why is it that whenever I need tissues the most I don't have any?" I thought.
"I bet Lacey has tissues, she has everything. But what does she have that I don't? I mean she is obnoxious! Is that it? Am I stuck up? Why am I so upset? I mean I was not entirely sure that I wanted to date Coltrane
But that was because of Lacey! I knew it. I knew he liked her. But what kind of a person does that? One that thinks he is too good for me. One who does not care who he hurts. I was his second choice, his just good enough.
I was something to make Lacey jealous. I was used.
Is that all I'm good for? "Just good enough to make someone jealous, but not enough for someone to really love me?" I thought to myself.
I could not stop crying no matter how hard I tried. I couldn't walk again.
"Oh man why didn't I bring tissues?" I said as I looked through my purse
. I finally found a tissue though I had used it to stick my gum in yesterday. It had to do.
As I picked it up I saw my Firewood comic and looked at the cover. There I saw the main character Jake Likeness He is a ladies man. He treats each one like she is the only girl he has ever loved.
Even if it does not last I want to be treated like that, just once. But no man like that exists, not in real life
. I have only seen one good relationship that's lasted and that's Candace's parents.
I wish my parents loved each other even half as much as they do. I don't think mom and dad even like each other. They fight all the time and since mom is a Doctor and dad is always away on business they hardly see each other as it is.
I don't understand why they haven't broken up. Sometimes I wish they would. I know it would make both of them happy. They could move on that way. Then again they always were stubborn like that.
Today I didn't feel like getting up for school. I didn't want to face Coltrane and Lacey. I didn't want to cry in public again.
I just wanted to sleep. But as I was deciding how I would skip school my phone started to ring. It was Candace as usual.
"Stacy! I think I finally found a way to bust Phineas and Ferb!". she said
"Great Candace. You go for it" I said. "Didn't you get my text? I have been used and humiliated and you are talking about busting your brothers!".
"Stacy, I never got a text. What happened?!". she replied
"I was at the mall and I - wait. Are you sure you didn't get the text?"
"Then who did I.. Candace I will see you at school I need to check something".
I hung up right away and checked my phone.
I walked out the door to school. Its embarrassing enough that this happened. But now Coltrane knows. I didn't want him to find out like this. Not that I would have known what to say anyway. I got onto the bus and there was Coltrane sitting a row ahead of Lacey.
"Listen Coltrane I know what happened but I didn't mean to tell you that way I-"
"Woah woah woah chill. I just wanted to get your cell number again. I was out yesterday and I lost my phone"
Yeah, "out". I bet you lost it at the mall.
"Oh. So you have not had your phone since yesterday?"
"Nope, Hey have you decided-"
"I bet you lost it at the mall"
I mumbled under my breath interrupting him as I walked away trying not to cry. I don't know if he heard my last sentence or not but he did not look to the back of the bus once. Oh well. At least he didn't get the text. Now what am I going to do? *sigh*
As I walked down the hallway to lunch I noticed the boy who is dating Lacey. I wondered if he knew. I wondered if he was hurt. Did he really love her? Were they both using each other? Does he even know? 'So many questions. I would talk to him but I don't know him and I guess its none of my business.. I walked ahead and went to lunch without making eye contact to the boy.